Recently...my life has been full of what seems to be a lot of lemons and I have been trying desperately to make myself some lemonade...but it is still turning out too sour.
Big news...we are expecting.
What??? Holy crap!! This is crazy!! Is she insane??? (is that what's running through your head? It's what ran through mine for a brief moment when I first found out)
This should be some pretty sweet lemonade...but it has taken some effort to get there. Personally, once I push aside all of the worries about time and money, I am really happy about this. What has been hard are peoples reactions. Maybe these people are stealing my sugar and that's why my lemonade has been so sour.
This was something that wasn't particularly planned...so it has obviously taken some adjustment. I have hesitated to even announce it, but considering this is our 4th baby....6th pregnancy...Im starting to have a hard time keeping it a secret physically.
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| 10 weeks...Im going to be huge when this is over |
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| Emersyn or Sawyer...we find out November 21st |
Believe me this has taken some adjustment on my part, but I can't change it. I can't make the baby disappear...and I really want this to be a super sweet glass of lemonade moment in my life...especially since this is the LAST ONE. I always knew I wanted one more...and this may be sooner than I thought it would be...but I need to be able to be happy about this. I need to be able to share this news without people judging me. Just be happy for us. I want to savor every moment of this pregnancy good and bad because it is the last time I will experience this miracle.
I will finish school...I can take care of every single one of my kids...I will be happy...thank you all who voiced concerns about these aspects of my life. And you better bet my lemonade is going to be sweet. Even if those people in Walmart with all the unwelcome advice look at me with all of my kids and shake their heads. It may seem crazy...but this is a blessing that started out as lemons but is now my lemonade and I'd like to share it with the people in my life I care about without feeling nervous and anxious about their reactions.
I am proud of my little family. I know that having that many kids so young in age will be a challenge. But I am up for it and I can handle it. I just can't handle rude people :) So cheers to this new challenge. I know it will have its sour moments but that's motherhood. Full of sour moments...but the sweet...oh man...there is nothing else like it in this world.
Well congratulations! I am happy for you. I completely get it too. I cried SO much in the beginning of my pregnancy because of rude comments....such as do you know how old your are???? that means when your baby graduates from high school, you will be super old. As if I'm not aware of how old I am, pretty sure I have been keeping track of it. Why did you wait so long between this baby and Wesley, now they won't be friends or close in their relationship. We also got the comment about having ANOTHER baby, hello it's number 4, we are not the Duggars. I even had someone tell me that she would be so mad if her tax dollars went to our family when we go on welfare because we have so many kids. Whatever! I finally just started to ignore people and realize that they will fins something else to gossip about next week when my pregnancy was old news. I think it is great that you are having another baby and you will be so blessed for it. Not that you need my approval at all :)
ReplyDeleteUh, sorry I was one of those with a less than supportive reaction to this good news. You are more than capable of parenting another child. I'm still working on perfecting my loving kindness and generosity - maybe someday I will get there.
ReplyDeleteLove you, Mom
Congratulations Danielle!! your babies are adorable :)
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