Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Leap Day and Balloons

So today is Jackson's actual birthday. It is the first time he's had a birthday on the actual day he was born since he was born.  So....Jason and I wanted to try to make it extra special. Last night we stayed up really late blowing up 70 balloons to sneak into his room for him to wake up to this morning.  The blowing them up and tying them part was not so fun...but I was giggling like a little school girl as we snuck arm fulls of balloons into his room. It was so much fun!

He woke up this morning and yelled...MOM YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS...ITS LIKE MAGIC! He was so excited. Groggy and a bit out of it...but excited.  Then I told him that he could play with them all over the house today and make a mess. He got even more excited.  I guess I may need to lighten up a bit when it comes to clutter and keeping the house clean. He literally acted like that was the best thing I had said to him in his whole life. LOL
waking up to all his balloons
still a bit sleepy

now hes excited!
 Funny side story of the day...We have a landline phone that we never really use and when it rings it is always a telemarketer or something like that. Well I was getting ready this morning and I heard it ringing but decided to just ignore it.  A few minutes later Jack comes in my bathroom and says...Mommy, I answered your phone and it was Wal-mart. They said you need to take me there and get me a card and some toys. HA! Nice try kid. :) 

So...Happy Birthday my sweet funny smart handsome little boy. I love you so much! You are growing up to be such a sweet little boy.  You make me smile everyday and I am so thankful that I get to be your mommy.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Birthday parties and new additions

So its been exactly four weeks since I posted on here last. I know this because the last time I wrote I was 12 weeks pregnant...now Im 16 weeks. This pregnancy is flying by which is both good and bad. Good because I cant wait to meet this little baby...bad because I have a ton to do to get ready.  Anyway...these last four weeks have been very busy full of ups downs parties and new additions.

Lets start with the bad. All of us...except for Jackson...have been very unfortunate in the sickness department this winter.  Layla and I both had bronchitis recently. I wont go into huge details because I dont want to dwell on the bad...but it was just that BAD.  I think being sick when you are pregnant is a curse from Hell. And all mommies out there know that moms do not get a break when they are sick.  I survived though...even after a nasty reaction to my antiobiotics. And thank goodness we are all healthy at the moment.....knock on wood.

We had a lot of good happen the last few weeks.  First of all my baby boy turned 4!! I cannot believe that he is 4 and that I have one more year with him before he starts school. Just thinking about it makes me tear up.  We have decided that in our family we will have real birthday parties with friends and everything when the kids are 4, 8, 12 and 16.  The rest of the bdays will be family only and just at home.  So this year was Jacks turn for his first big party. OH MY GOSH...was this stressful for me to plan and implement. He wanted a Chuck E. Cheese party.  Now...I hate this place on a Tuesday afternoon when its just me and a handful of other moms and kids. So imagine my distress when we walk into the party Saturday night to Chuck E. Cheese on crack!!  I figured it would be busy....but I was not prepared for the chaos I walked into. My heart rate shot up and my mind screamed RUN RUN AWAY NOW! But...a lot of the kids we invited were already there and Jacksons face was so lit up with excitement....I stayed and put on a smile and turned myself into the best Host I could be.

My heart never stopped racing and by the end of the night I was pretty darn sweaty...but it was a success and he loved it.  He got to dance with the big mouse himself and to my relief not a single kid was lost or hurt during the madness.  Jackson felt so special...and that really was the whole point.  I love that little boy so much and I cant say that I will ever EVER do that again....but I dont regret a moment of it.
Look mom Im four!!

his Harry Potter cake

blowing out the candles

dancing with Chuck E.
Also adding to the good for our little family this week...we got a new addition to the Pfeffer clan.  It's big...boxy...GOLD (which made me literally cry at first) and definately not something I ever thought I would want let alone like....but its ours and now that I have it I love it.   We got a MINI VAN!
my new stylin' ride :)
 I cant believe those words are reality for me. I always swore Id never drive a van. But....having kids has changed that for me and now that I have it Im in love.  When Jason first told me he got the van the first thing I asked was...what color is it? When he said gold I literally cried. Ive been driving a taxi yellow Ford Focus for years now and if I was going to get stuck driving a van I at least wanted it to be pretty. Gold to me is not pretty. BUT when I saw it it turned out to not be so bad.  It is incredibly easy to load and unload the kids and the storage room is amazing.  Its definately not a "cool mom" car. But lets face it...when have I ever been cool? And case in point...I love this thing. So that proves it...Im not a cool mom and I most likely never will be and Im completely fine with that.

Finally here's a quick update on our little bean...that actually looks a lot like a teeny tiny baby these days.  The weight gain has begun. At my 16 week appointment I have officially gained a whopping 2 lbs.  Im sure the weight gain will pick up now that Im not nauseous at all anymore.  Even though the lbs dont show it my stomach sure has "popped".
16 weeks....lookin' at least 20
 People arent kidding when they say the third time around you just pop really fast.  I cant wear my regular pants anymore at all. But...it make me happy because I know the baby is growing like it should.  Heart rate is consistently in the 160s.  My gut intuition and all the dreams Ive had so far have made me feel like this is a girl.  I told Jackson and he said, "Mommy if this is a girl Im going to cry"  Poor kid.....Nothing much else to share in that department. Still praying for healthy. Ultrasound is in 4 weeks!

So...now I have a 4 year old who has decided to really test his independence and push all my buttons lately...
My mostly sweet....occasionally possessed by a tantrum throwing demon 4 year old :)
A almost 2 year old that has no fear which scares me but she is the funniest thing and makes me laugh daily...
silly mischevious girl
And a husband that is loving supportive and exhausted...lol
So thrilled to have his picture taken lol
I wouldnt change any of it for the world. :)

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

12 weeks down...28 to go

I have officially hit 12 weeks pregnant. My doctor told me this week is the safe zone. My chances of having another miscarriage have apparently dropped significantly. Now I just have to worry about heart and neural tube defects until we get our ultrasound on March 26th. Aww the joys of the paranoia that I am blessed with because of my job.  Seriously though...I am really really happy to have hit this milestone in this pregnancy.  The heart beat was loud and clear immediately after she put the doppler on my stomach...she didnt even have to look for the baby. That was incredibly reassuring.  And I am starting to show a bit nowadays.
To me this feels huge for twelve weeks...especially since I took this over a week ago
 I guess when this is your third pregnancy your body just decides to show a lot sooner. I just wish the slightly pudgy look would pass quickly so I can look pregnant.  Right now I feel bloated and fat.  Amazingly though I have gained no weight...at all.  I guess thats what happens when you are chasing a 3 and 1 year old around all day everyday. Jackson insists this baby is a boy and Jason wont even discuss girl names. Hope my boys arent disappointed...Im just praying for healthy.

My moods are crazy. I can have one day that is amazing...where I feel good and I have energy and I am happy with my life. Then the next day I wake up and I feel like my life is out of control, my temper is short, and I feel on the edge of insanity as I try to muddle through my day. And I cry constantly...about stupid stupid stuff. I hate those days because then I lay in bed feeling guilty for being a crappy mom.  Hormones suck.  But I tell myself constantly...this will pass and it will be all worth it in the end. Losing the baby in September has really helped me keep my perspective on the blessing this really is. So...I can deal with my borderline personality and nausea and exhaustion because I have a clear picture of the end result.

The one thing I am starting to freak out about is time. I feel like we have so much to do before this baby arrives.  We need bunk beds...a new infant carseat...a crap ton of baby stuff to buy because stupid me gave it away. We need to organize bedrooms and get rid of stuff. Jason and I have vacations to plan and pay for...a van to buy...I need some fat clothes aka maternity clothes....I mean I could go on and on.  I know we will get it all done. But its kind of like the beginning of a semester at school. You get that syllbus and look at all the work you have to accomplish in the next few months and freak out...at least I did. But....it gets done.  I really really need to relax.  Thank God Jason and I are going on a babymoon soon. We are taking a mini cruise to the Bahamas. And despite my irrational fear of being surrounded by nothing but water...I think we will have fun.

So...heres to welcoming in the second trimester! I remember this part being a bit more easy going than that awful first trimester. Kind of like a relief period before the real hell of the third trimester starts.  And heres to hoping that my pregnancy related mood disorder passes soon. I have inhaled a massive amount of chocolate in the last few mintutes as I type this trying to ease the pains of an exceptionally bad day.
this took me less then five min to eat...I need an intervention
 If this continues I might look like a beached white whale on our cruise...YIKES...not a pretty picture. 

sexy huh?